RetreatBoss Magazine - 003

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Reclaiming your voice doesn’t require volume. Just truth.

here are moments in life

when decisions don’t feel like

choices. They feel like survival.

When I finally said no more,

it didn’t come out strong or

confident. It was so quiet it could have

been lost in the hum of the refrigerator.

Just a hesitant breath rising from a part of

me I hadn’t visited in years. But I heard it.

And this time, I listened.

For so long, I had gotten really good at

disappearing. Shrinking myself to fit in.

Reading the energy in a room before I

spoke a word. I had mastered the art of

keeping the peace. Dimming my light,

softening my opinions, avoiding conflict

at all costs.

I could hold space for everyone else. I just

couldn’t seem to hold space for myself.

And I didn’t question it because I thought

that was strength. But it wasn’t. Endurance

isn’t strength. Endurance is survival.

Strength is something else entirely.

For me, strength arrived quietly and

unexpectedly. No drama, no fanfare. Just

a clarity sharper than the diamond on my

finger, mined from far away and polished

to perfection.

It was an ordinary day. I dropped the kids

at school, taught a yoga class, and came

home to tidy up. That’s when I stumbled

upon the kind of truth that stops you in

your tracks—the kind that silences you

before it sets you free.

Betrayal.

The irony is that it wasn’t the act itself that

broke me open. It was what it revealed.

A truth that had been gnawing at me for

years. One I had avoided naming until that

moment: I had been slowly abandoning

myself. I was the one polished to perfection

on the outside, yet so far away from myself

on the inside.

All the times I said yes when I meant no.

All the times I made myself small to feel safe.

All the times I pretended to be someone

else to be loved and accepted.

It all came rushing in at once, like someone

had suddenly turned on the lights in a dark

room I had been standing in for years.

And in that moment, I didn’t explode. I

didn’t scream. I didn’t fall apart.

Quiet

Boundaries

The Art of