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The Masks That Block the Love

We Crave

It’s funny that we put on masks to

gain approval, but those very masks

block the intimacy we long for.

When we hide parts of ourselves,

we might earn admiration, but we

miss out on being seen.

Vulnerability - messy, risky, real

vulnerability - is what makes true

connection possible.

And when we finally stop trying

to be impressive and start being

honest, something opens up. We

find freedom - not in having it all

together, but in no longer needing

to.

As researcher Brené Brown said,

“True belonging doesn’t require you

to change who you are; it requires

you to BE who you are.”

When we focus too much on being

liked by others, we lose the ability

to belong to ourselves.

You Can’t Receive Love Beyond

What You Believe You Deserve

There’s something else I’ve come to

believe: We will never let someone

love us more than we love ourselves.

It’s like trying to fill a bucket that

has holes halfway up. Those holes?

They’re formed by all the ways we’ve

decided we’re not enough. And no

matter how much love someone

pours in, it only fills to the level of

our own self-worth.

The work of transformation is

learning to seal those holes; to

believe you’re worthy of love,

not because of what you do, but

because of who you are.

That’s when love, belonging, and

connection can begin to overflow.

Transformation Isn’t a Checklist.

It’s a Homecoming.

It’s not a five-step checklist or a

linear path. It’s more like peeling

an onion - layer after layer, year

after year.

Some fall away easily. Others

hold on with surprising strength.

But every time we choose truth

over performance, freedom over

approval, we carve closer to who

we really are.

Transformation doesn’t begin with

effort. It begins with compassionately

turning toward yourself and really

seeing your own heart.

I’ve seen this truth play out in

my own life. There was a season

in my life when I, like so many,

was living under the weight of

inauthenticity. I didn’t even know I

was doing it - performing, pleasing,

keeping everyone comfortable at

the expense of my own soul.

As I began creating space to listen

inward instead of reaching outward

for validation, things began to shift.

No longer did I need to hold up a

mask or manage perception. I’ve

started giving myself permission to

disappoint people, to let them think

what they want - and in doing so, I’ve

started belonging to myself.

It can be scary. And it’s holy.

I’m discovering that real love - the

kind that sees us, stays, and doesn’t

flinch - isn’t something we earn. It’s

something we allow.

We can only allow it to the degree

that we believe we’re worthy of it.

This is the invitation of transformation:

to stop trying to create yourself - and

start coming home to who you

already are.

That return is rarely linear or neat. It’s

a wild, beautiful, aching unraveling.

It’s the shedding of shoulds.

It’s learning to sit with the mess and

still say, “I’m worthy here.”

We think our masks will make us

lovable, but they actually keep us

from the thing we long for most -

connection.

Because true connection can only

happen when we are willing to be seen.

Fully. Tenderly. Honestly.

An Invitation Home

So, if you’re in the middle of your

becoming - if life feels awkward,

uncertain, or undone - I want to

remind you:

You’re not behind.

You’re not broken.

You’re perfectly in-process.

Every unraveling is holy.